To my Funny Valentine
~A letter to you~
“I
could have chosen the better, easier way, however would be unsure of
the immeasurable feeling that is keeping my heart to pound twice faster
than the normal… like now.”
To the man I chose to love, live and burn,
I will never understand how you understood my imperfections. I tie my
hair ruggedly and then you smile. I wear a crumpled pair of pants but
you never worry. When the bulging belly is visible, you simply say: “how
much is the last price” that sends me to the sky in laughter. Remember
how you imitate my cry with complains that so hilarious? Simple
pleasures, that is… Why would I not hold my breath with your
imperfections too?
We live as if there is no
life’s ending. We keep our own keys to a love that only you and I
understand. I have experienced the euphoria with you and that is so
passionate even in the presence of the critical eyes that question the
rarity of our delusions as we deny the fact that both of us are suicidal
in our own ways of expression against the worldly odds. I have never
encountered this kind but if we will start from the very beginning
again, I would still welcome you as I did at first.
In my whole life’s existence, I have never been this enthusiastic from
the time I wake up to the moment I surrender with the day. I would not
know any other place of comfort but in your arms. I would not know any
other face but yours and I would not know what I would become if you’ll
be gone… this is the only suffering that makes me cheerful, the suicidal
that is so euphoric. I wish to be with you until the time of that I’d
be forgetful with the cane full of undying memories.
I will love you for the rest of the being. You will be the last love
I’d prefer. I promise to cook better, to talk fast without nagging, to
live and burn with our differences with traditions, beliefs, culture and
so many more that were never created any barriers between us.
You will always be my one-of-a-kind funny clown when I’m sad, my
fortress when I’m in trouble, my protector, my source of strength, my
best friend, my only Valentine.
Forever yours,
You-Know-Who
14 Feb 2011
